..24..

NI HAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

well,..im juz came back from my school mate house, she invites me for having HI-TEA wif her and one of our fren. She made very delicious apple pie which it possible for me to make it ;-P hahaha malesss
we having chat and chat and finally we stop at one BIG KILLER QUESTION!(aduss aku benci betul soalan ini)"Fet, hows ur Bf?? when wanna get 'something'???"
ahhh again and odd!I juz grimly and said "Wait and c, my Bf will come down from sky soon!keep praying..keep prayingg" ummmph...

Suddenly my head back flashed to the movie that i watched few years ago " 30 HARI MENCARI CINTA" the story is all about how about 3 girls fight to get boyfriend in 30 days to safe themselves from paid house rent...
BUT
my condition now is,..."24 TAHUN MENCARI CINTA" hahah sounds suck but that's the reality is like that! BUT i believe all humans has being decide by GOD who gonna be her/his soul mate soon, the important now is keep PRAYING...

keep praying..keep praying

"WELL OPEN UR MIND AND SEE LIKE ME,OPEN UP UR PLANS AND DAMN UR FREE, LOOK INTO YOUR HEART AND U'LL FIND LOVE..LOVE..LOVE, LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE MOMENT U MAYBE SING WIF ME, A~LA PEACEFUL MELODY,IT'S YOUR GOD FOR SAKEN RIGHT TO B LOVE..LOVE..LOVED"

p/s:love is existed

...2 B HONEST...

"huuuuuuuuuu malam yang dingin,..
aku dikelilingi para nyamuk2 yang kelaparan,
and my mind start thinking wat shall i fill in..."

gara2 terCABAR dan rasa diCABAR oleh masa dan keadaaan,...i put my word ahead! to HIM mr bonny, i put my word for granted!

...
wat's the things i wanna say here is..WAT YEA? i juz lost my word again ahhh!!!
common on...common on...
PING! i got one,..yeah..after 3months working like a crazy ,jaded, exhausted, and forced by surrounding....FINALLY i get my 'MY LUXURIOUS'.THIS IS MY 1ST PAYMENT I'VE EVER HAD WITH THAT SIZE OF AMOUNT! I wont stated the number of it becoz im afraid IF im might be robbed or..may b people will think i was SNOB person! so i decided not to say about it...(wat can describe roughly is I can GO FOR SHOPPING like SHOPAHOLIC) hahah...no la..im kidding... The thing is, that money i will spend wisely for my studies...and the rest is...of coz for SHOPPING hahahaha
well can i do,.it naturally human being a.k.a girl's habit! like my mama said, since u still energetic and breathing well GET WAT U WANT TO, EAT WAT U TASTE TO and SHOP WAT U DESIRE TO (thanks mama we're in the same boat)
BUT...
HOWEVER..
the payment was still in chaque, thats mean..i need to keep my head ahead to put a plan wat shall i do wif d money b4 it really in my hand soon!wat ya...wat ya?owh simpan aja untuk belanja nikah kan?idea bagus hahah juz kidding!

so now,...im still putting my pen to write a list. 10 THINGS HOW TO FINISH MY MONEY IN ONE DAY..gila kan!

well..i think i suppose to STOP for a moment!beri laluan untuk otakku berfikir bagaimana untuk menghabiskan duit ku hahahahaha

TAKE FIVE...vrommmmmmmmmmmm!

...mean to...

bonjour!

aku kembali untuk membuat SAMPAH di blogku yang tidak seHEBAT dan seBAGUS ini, sekadar tempat kecil untuk aku meluahkan FEELINGS and THOUGHTS wats around,...
frankly, i was amazed with JASON MRAZ song IM YOURS (cowo'(lelaki) ganten(handsome) dari UK yang hanya menunggu lamaran dariku untuk dijadikan girlfriendnya...tunggu Jason give me a time to think ya!hahahah)
well, his song was simple but meaningful, even it specifically for those who r in love rite now, but for me it more sense for THE MEANINGFUL and THE POWER of word in relationship either in couple life or friendship!but,...im sure most of words are sense to be IN love...however and watever feeling comes through....GRAB the WORD...layansss

WELL U DONE DONE ME A BET I FELT IT
I TRIED TO BE CHILL OUT BUT U HOT SO I MELTED
I FELL RIGHT THROUGH THE CRACKS
AND IM TRYING TO GET BACK
BEFORE THE COOL DONE RUN I'LL BE GIVING MY BESTEST
AN' NOTHING's GOING TO STOP ME BUT DIVINE INTERVENTION
I RECKON ITS AGAIN MY TURN
TO WIN SOME OR LEARN SOME
I WONT HESITATED NO MORE
NO MORE I CANNOT WAIT IM YOURS

(below is the chord for keyboard)
B
Well open up your mind and see like me
F# G#m
Open up your plans and damn you're free
E
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
B F#
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

Ah la peaceful melody
G#m E C#7
It's your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

B F#
So i won't hesitate no more
G#m E
No more it cannot wait i'm sure
B F#
There's no need to complicate
G#m
Our time is short
E
This is our fate, I'm yours


(back to the lyric)
WELL OPEN UR MIND AND C LIKE ME
OPEN UP YOUR PLANS AND DAMN YOU'RE FREE
LOOK INTO YOUR HEART AND YOU'LL FIND LOVE LOVE LOVE
LISTEN TO THE MUSIC OF THE MOMENT MAYBE U SING WIF ME
Ah...la PEACEFUL MELODY
ITS YOURGOD FORSAKEN RIGHT TO BE LOVE LOVE LOVE
SO I WONT HASITATED NO MORE NO MORE
IT CANNOT WAIT IM YOURS
THERE'S NO NEED TO COMPLICATE
OUR TIME IS SHORT
THIS OUR FATE,I'M YOURS...

(below is the chord for keyboard)
I been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
F#
And bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
G#m
My breath fogged up the glass
E
So I drew a new face and laughed
B
I guess what i'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
F#
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
G#m
It's what we aim to do
E
Our name is our virtue


(sing second verse simultaneously with last Chorus)


B F#
I won't hesitate no more
G#m E
No more it cannot wait I'm sure
B F#
There's no need to complicate
G#m
Our time is short
E
It cannot wait, I'm yours



...before i ended this session, wat can i say here is "love urself before u love others"...LIFE IS ONCE so FILL IT LOVE

jumpa lagiiiiiiii

...let it flows...

hola!
well im juz came back from hypermarket, bought the thing that no ones can even thoughts i will buy it without NO GOOD REASON.
guess wat is it?
--->hahah i bought KEYBOARD
damn good unexpectedly..suddenly happened had started when,...
time: around 7pm
weather:good dusk

...im reading newspaper, suddenly my eyes was caught by advertisement " BIG SALE-only for today 22.06.2008" and coincidentally i saw really well made KEYBOARD a.k.a organ! with the very low price...around $100 only!!!!what on earth had happened?! i cant lose this HOT instrument !!! i adore this thing since i was 8 years old....ahhh finally a moon down to my hip
without wasting time,i asked my cousin to accompany me and....i get the car key,start the engine and........VROOOOOM...i only took 5 minutes to reached market( commonly ppl took almost 15 minutes)hahaha crazy rite! well, afterward, no hasting...i putted my way straight to the electrical section, looking for the keyboard!i took 10 minutes to solve all the payment and............VROMMM back home and...play with IT with ZERO knowledge of keyboard chord...

p/s: as long as the keyboard key is TUNE in...i keep enjoy it!hahah im juz too conscious!

...TRUE...

....midnite....

...If my life is for rent and don;t learn to buy, well i deserve nothing more than i get, cos nothing I have truly mine, I've always thought I would love live by the sea, to travel the world alone and live more simply..I have no idea what's happened to the dream,cos there's really nothing here to stop me....

...

...sometimes i got so weird, i even freak myself out I laugh myself to sleep it's my lullaby,sometimes i drive so fast, just to feel the danger, i wanna scream and make me feel alive, is it enough to love?is it enough to breath?somebody rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed, is it enough to die, somebody save my life, i'd rather be anything but ordinary please...

p/s: above are all the words that related to me, if u wanna know, READ and MEAN IT those sentences...COS IM JUST ORDINARY AND MYLIFE IS JUST FOR RENT...

...finding...

PINGGG!!!
aku fikir untuk kali ini, aku mau guna MIX languages.Biar semua yang membaca jadi DIZZY !

em..
semalam, aku solat istqarah smgoa di beri pentunjuk Ilahi, hope i will get the rite choice!BUT ternyata aku tidak menerima apa-apa petunjuk yang bisa memberi aku jalan jawapan!Pertama-tama, THANKS SO MUCH to my great buddy MR.BONNY for your advices and your guided! At least i knew the rite way to do 'shalat istikaroh' even i knew ur not quite sure with that hahah...walobagimanpun gw berterima kasih buat loe krna sudi mndengar 'cerita lara' gw ini heee UR THE BEST!

back to the story,
well im really hope tonite my BIG GUESS will dissolve!May GOD shown me the right thing!

sesungguhnya aku hanya makhluk tuhan yang sangat lemah dan lagi naif!Aku mohon padaMU yang 4JJI semoga jalan yang engkau tunjuki adalah jalan muktamad bagi menyelesaikan gundah gulana yang sekian minggu bersarang di benak dan dihatiku!

sometimes i felt..i was trapped in between of DESIRE and FAMILY's NEED!Aku bingung memikir soal ini, aku tidak mau air mata mama mengalir keresahan mikirkan tentang aku, dan tidak sanggup pula aku biarkan diri ini terus tersiksa menanggung duka kerana sebuah cita-cita...

di manakah akan aku temui jawapan sebuah PERSOALAN ini???

Insya4JJI malam ini, dengan izinNYA akan aku gagahkan diri untuk mohon petunjuk diri agar tidak selamanya fikiranku ini 'berkecamuk' dan hatiku kembali tenang!
-amin-

apa kata hati...

ikut rasa, binasa
ikut hati, mati
ikut jiwa ,lara
maka...
ikut iman,...tenang

Sesungguhnya tiada yang mudah dalam kehidupan ini selain menempuh seribu halangan sebelum mencapai sebuah kejayaan! Itu adalah percaturan hidup...Seperti membeli makanan di kedai pun kita harus berjalan,..dalam perjalanan ke kedai bermacam-macam harus kita tempuh,penat dan harus beratur menunggu giliran untuk membeli..kadang-kadang pabila sampai turnkita..makanan itu habis...kita kecewa! Tapi sedarkah kita bahwa masih banyak kedai makan yang menjual pelbagai makanan di tempat lain...sekiranya kita masih punya 'daya,usaha dan kemahuan serta berbekalkan semangat' mungkin kedai lain itu punya makanan yang lebihhh enak dari kedai yang sebelumnya!SIAPA TAHU...

Sometimes,..
to get something that we really adore with does not easy as we say " I WANT THAT" like when we love someone,...we naturally will not say "I WANT YOU or I LIKE U" on directly, becoz as human being we have a very limited of strength to 'speak out'. Sometimes a person will take a week to put decision to react and take many years to make declaration to be in love wif someone! WHY THIS THING HAPPEN?
becoz all of us had been given by God a 'HEART'. It's not a heart that we can see through ECG scan, but a HEART that deeply inside in our internal soul. Which the form of it is un explain, very abstract and very literal.

FOLLOW ur HEART!

Is that sentence was right?for me it WILL yes, when the decision is coming from ur heart was been guided by praying to 4JJI, may the decision we chose is RIGHT and blessing. WHY MUST BE PRAYING n BLESSING? the answer is simple... THE RIGHT THING WAS CAME FROM GOD AND THE WORSE WAS CAME BY OUR OWN POOR CAPABLE THINKING AS HUMAN BEING...(yang baik itu datang dari Allah dan yang buruk(jelek) itu datangnya dari kelemahan manusia itu sendiri) wahhualam...

im not here for babble...but juz an advice to all of us and to MYSELF indeed, becoz as human being we;re weak and poor BUT by the guided of 4JJI all those thing in our life will be 'STRONG' n 'RICH'...amin...

p/s:im waiting for d rite time to impress my feeling BUT am i able to do it so? but my heart says...'TAKE ur TIME'

OUT of WORD

"Last night i cant sleep again...
My head felt wanna exploded my tears was poured down like a stream and made my cheek wet..."



Frankly right now,in this moment i can't look at the granted letter from ITB, my heart felt so sad,disappointed and miserable. What shall i do? Actually i've no choices. I cant put my decision and of course all the coming words is from my family. My all mighty god,Allah pleased give the right way and may what has decision is coming and will come soon under your bless...I just dont wanna be "SPLIT" in family...the good is from them, for them and the only one thing pleased dont let them "controlled" myself to 'fill in my soul' pleased....

p/s: please someone help me to breathing!!!...(-_-)

' NO COMMENT'

wa....wa....wa...
(new greeting sound)

okay untuk kali ini, aku fikir utk menulis blog dalam bahasa melayu

well...cuti skolah dh hampir tamat dan sememangnya sepanjang cuti skolah berlangsung akulah antara makhluk tuhan yang paling gembira kerana....NO SCHOOLING!NO TEACHING! wahhh indahnya dapat tidur selewat jam 3 pagi dan bangun selewatnya yang mungkin!iskh bohong aja...sememangnya aku akan bangun paling lewat pun jammmm 8.30am!

pertama-tamanya....seminggu sebelum cuti skolah bermula,...berkeping-keping kad WANGI sampai ke rumah..kad wangi??ala kad kawin la...wah dapatlah satu 'bundle'kad wangi!jemput sane..jemputan sini..pendek kateee.. MAKAN FREE is EVERYWHERE...
kawan-kawan 'time' kecik dulu.kawan-kawan skolah rendah+menengah,kawan-kawan time 'U' pun ramai dah mula naik pelamin....ramaiiii dah mula bertunang!AKU???

hehehhe...kawan-kawan aku pun 'busy body' tanya bile plak time aku!kawan-kawan mama n ayah pun sibuk-sibuk tanya "anak bila?" huh...

aku dengan rela hati menjawab soalan yang 'datang tak dijemput,jawab pun..ikut hati'
"NO COMMENT"
bagi aku jawapan itu sangat CUAK dan membosankan..tapi 'THAT's d PROPER n HONEST+SINCERE' kan?

kerana bagi aku...

p/s: perjuangan masih belum selesai...sesungguhnya jodoh pertemuan itu di tangan ALLAH...amin...
*yang utama..aku ga mo jadi jomblo smpeiii tua!nauzubillah

astalavista........